Decisions

[cindylouwho]

I'm not sure I'm going to be writing anymore.  I'm feeling kind of frustrated about it, and that is a key sign I need to back away.  I know my reasons are ridiculous, but I think I would feel a little bit better about it if I got more than a handful of comments, or got recced.  I know that I say that all the time, and I know it isn't a real measure of the kind of writer I am or any other writer for that matter.  It's a competitive market, and I'm just not sure I want to keep competing.  

I put a lot into my last long piece, it was really personal and addressed how I was feeling a while back, and I don't know if I can keep putting myself out there for the time being...... which is how I feel about pretty much everything right now.

Comments

[nuclearfootball.livejournal.com]

:(

I'm putting a lot of myself into bridges freeze and that's probably why I'll never show it to anyone but friends. ...Though of course sometimes I feel like provoking people into pissing me off. So who knows!

I agree that frustration = time to reconsider things. That applies to anything, pretty much.

Of course I was frustrated with writing too and didn't feel like ever doing it again and that lasted hmm maybe a week? So don't give up on your muse for good!

:)

(God I sound like a douche in this comment. I'm so sorry. But I want to say something and I don't know what else to say so I'll just go ahead and say all this.)

[cindy-lou-who8.livejournal.com]

You do not sound like a douche. I'm just frustrated, a lot of which you have touched on in your own posts re: the issues with the fandom.

I know I shouldn't make decisions when I am tired/cranky/PMSy/etc but its been on my mind lately.....

[sodiumbisulfite.livejournal.com]

I havent been reading fic lately which is why I havent commented. But I never get recced or commented on really either. I just write because it makes *me* feel better. If it helps you put your emotions in check, I say keep doing it and fuck 'em if they dont like it :)


Im sure this was unhelpful &hearts

[cindy-lou-who8.livejournal.com]

I know I should, b/c it does. But idk I just get pissy. IDK I have issues right now. '

Thanks <3