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Head update
Dec. 4th, 2008 07:03 pmToday I went to the ophthalmologist. It was a fiasco. I was there for 3 hours and I had to have my eyes dilated. Then they did some tests which made me very anxious and then tried to do another and I basically said stop. I was freaking out and I had already taken 2 ativan and I was feeling like I was being pushed and pressured into this machine for my head. Not fun.
The results: There is no tumor on my optic nerve or anywhere my eyes are. Everything is fine.
This is all great, but it is just another thing checked off that is all right. I wish something would just be *wrong* so it can be fixed, so maybe they will believe me when I say I'm in pain.
I have another follow up with the pain center tomorrow. I've been calling all week and today I was like listen, I've been fucking waiting for a call back and no one has done so and I'm in pain and I want someone to listen to me. So the guy arranged for me to see another dr. there tomorrow. And they better give me pain meds b/c I am rapidly approaching the end of my secret secret secret stash.
The results: There is no tumor on my optic nerve or anywhere my eyes are. Everything is fine.
This is all great, but it is just another thing checked off that is all right. I wish something would just be *wrong* so it can be fixed, so maybe they will believe me when I say I'm in pain.
I have another follow up with the pain center tomorrow. I've been calling all week and today I was like listen, I've been fucking waiting for a call back and no one has done so and I'm in pain and I want someone to listen to me. So the guy arranged for me to see another dr. there tomorrow. And they better give me pain meds b/c I am rapidly approaching the end of my secret secret secret stash.
