Deja vu

[cindylouwho]

I lost my job again.

It happened the same time last year, right before the House finale.

I feel like such a failure. Apparently I suck as a teacher, failed to keep the kids safe, didn't keep the room up to date with their work, or do 1000 other different things.

I have to finish out the year once again, in a place that doesn't want me.

I have no idea what I am going to do in the future. I have no skills other than teaching; I haven't even come remotely close to paying off my loans.

I'm terrified, depressed, and I just have no idea what I am going to do now.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

You are NOT a failure. You just haven't found the place that's the right fit for you yet. It will happen.

Remember people (like me!) love you. If I can do anything to help I surely will.

Cyn

[arhh.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* Perhaps you just haven't found the right fit of school to teach in. I have no doubts in your teaching abilities or your love for your students.

As for your loans, you can get deferments, so don't stress too much about those at this point.

Just take a step back and think about things, look for other schools even just look for work you wouldn't mind doing to pay the bills even if it has nothing to do with teaching. You have a degree, lots of places just are interested in that, they don't necessarily care what it is in.

*hugs*

[topaz-eyes.livejournal.com]

Oh honey, I'm sorry. :-(

Apparently I suck as a teacher, failed to keep the kids safe, didn't keep the room up to date with their work, or do 1000 other different things.

I know it's hard to be objective right now, but--are these their words, or yours? What did they actually say was the reason, and is it something that can be worked on? It may be too late for this position, but not for the next one.

(((hugs)))

[magie-05.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetie, I'm so so sorry to hear that, but it does not make you a failure. Like others have said, you just need to find the right fit for you and it is out there. ♥ Wish I could help (more than just sending out good thoughts for you) but I'm here if you wanna talk.

♥♥♥

[chippers87.livejournal.com]

As I said on Twitter, you are not a failure and you will find your niche soon. Have you looked into the non-profit sector? Maybe your skills as a teacher could lend to a job as a community liaison or something like that.

You can make this work. I have faith in you, and your friends will support you all the way.

[bishojo-kitsune.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[travln1.livejournal.com]

You are most definitely NOT a failure. Don't think that way. I have a teaching degree and an English degree. I've taken the last several years off for personal reasons, and am now looking at getting back into the work force. My teaching degree has expired and I've decided not to renew. I have no idea what I'm going to do or where to go, and I also wonder why I can't just have a normal job like everyone else. I'm going to submit my application to a local referral service for a desk job somewhere. Ho hum.

If teaching is what you want...you just need to find a place that fits you. I've worked at three schools, and I know that two of those schools were not "me". The third one was and it felt like home. Maybe you just haven't found "home" yet.

Good luck to you. Trust that you are not a failure. Don't think that way. There may be extenuating circumstances that you aren't aware of (budget stuff) and they may have needed to cut back and used any excuse to do it.

[boffleb.livejournal.com]

Sorry this happened. *hugs* But since you see a pattern, maybe it would be a good idea to explore that insight by thinking it through with a job counselor or life coach. Also, all the skills you have as a teacher are easily transferable to other like professions should you choose something else. And I'm sure you have other skills and abilities you just haven't developed yet. So there's lots of possibilities that are hard to see right now, but you could start seeing them soon. Good luck!

[2801rosie.livejournal.com]

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
I'm so sorry to hear this. All I can say is you are NOT a failure. I know it is hard but try not to let it bring you down. I agree with arhh and magie_05. There are lots of things you can do with that degree you have. Finish the year out, collect unemployment, or partial if you work part time at another job, and think about what you want to do. Would you leave your area. Go where a job takes you.
Good Luck and if there is anything I can do just ask.
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

[phinnia.livejournal.com]

oh sweetheart. *hughughughughug*

[jane-hidell.livejournal.com]

God, I'm sorry. D: <3<3<3

[primarycolors92.livejournal.com]

I don't know you, but I saw this and just wanted to say that my dad is losing his job for the second time in two years. He has to stay on to finish up some projects, so he's still working there, but he knows he's got two, three months top.

So you're not alone, and I wish you lots of good luck!

[lana-ftw.livejournal.com]

Damn. I'm sorry :[

[sodiumbisulfite.livejournal.com]

&hearts&hearts

Cindy, I am so so sorry. But you are not a failure (as everyone above me has also pointed out) I understand what it's like to feel that way though, believe you me. But the only thing any of us can ever do is keep pushing forward and believe in the fact that ONE day all of the bullshit and all of the set backs will be worth it. It just makes us all the more stronger than people who get lucky right off the bat. Dont look at this as a failure, look at it as an experience and learn from it, and things will be okay.

You could always get certified and teach somewhere else, right? Come to NY. We would love to have you &hearts